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Being a painter generally means feeling like an object of curiosity or affectionate sympathy\u2014I do admire his work, love the guy, but how does his wife put up with him<\/em>? Sometimes I think I\u2019m looked upon with vague suspicion, as if my street\u2019s property values will immediately edge down if word gets out about what I do with my time. Making a painting doesn\u2019t strike most people as work. It\u2019s fundamentally irresponsible, usually requiring other sources of income, and is essentially a strenuously sedentary form of play. Like, say, high-stakes poker. No sweat is involved, but money can be made, though not very often and only by a few of the luckiest practitioners.<\/p>\n

There are other problems. Those of us who devote long hours to the act of painting tend to hang together, forming little suspect coteries of marginality\u2014grown men and women who want to make pictures<\/em>, dress in age-inappropriate ways, or gender-inappropriate ways, or species-inappropriate ways, and usually earn less than enough to make ends meet. We look at one another and think, yep, she has the disease too, thank God, because it means I\u2019m not alone.<\/em> I see Richard Dreyfuss sculpting a mountain with his mashed potatoes at the dinner table in Close Encounters of the Third Kind<\/em>, as his children weep with the conviction that daddy has gone bonkers, and I say, Keep going, keep going, Roy, it will all make sense in the end!<\/em> But I wonder. Will it? So I hang out with fellow artists and drink beer and talk about how badly other people handle their paint, or how amazing Richter is when you see his actual canvases, or how so-and-so is a clever sell-out\u2014and in the end we go our separate ways and feel more energized, but just as alone. Because the solitude is essential, even if sometimes intolerable. You have to isolate yourself and work on self-imposed deadlines for a solo show where months or years of labor may go up and come down with only one or two sales, no reviews, and maybe much less praise than you\u2019d hoped to get. And then, after these necessary bouts of doubt and loneliness, you rush to hang out with other artists again and talk your way toward 3 a.m., hoping that the friendships will support you, emotionally, until you arrive at a breakthrough.<\/p>\n

And that\u2019s how a few years of painting stretches into many years, and then decades, at which point you start constructing elaborate philosophies on why it matters that you keep trying to build something beautiful even though only a tiny percentage of the human population may ever see it. I had lunch with a good friend from college after decades of estrangement, and I told her I was writing a blog in part to clarify for myself why painting matters. She smiled tolerantly and said, \u201cIsn\u2019t it just that you really want to do it?\u201d True, but I didn\u2019t need to hear it put quite so bluntly. Especially at my age.<\/p>\n

So I think it\u2019s fair to ask, what is wrong with us<\/em>? Especially male painters. Why can\u2019t we just be ordinary guys? Another friend of mine, an amateur photographer said, \u201cI think Average Joe generally thinks of painting in an almost comical way. \u00a0Ernie Kovacs with a beret dabbing at a canvas when the inspiration strikes, or Kirk Douglas cutting off his ear. Angela Lansbury relaxing by sitting at an easel near the sea. Women should be doing it.\u201d Or that unbalanced gay brother in Wedding Crashers<\/em>. We aren\u2019t immune to the way we\u2019re probably viewed by business executives and wild-catters and truck drivers and most guys who do nothing but guy things. If you\u2019re one of the celebrated elite painters, none of this applies: you have a house on Long Island and a place in Maine and a wife who also makes art, and you probably have a studio in Europe, as well as a fleet of fun vehicles, and you get to fly around the world to attend parties where people buy your work before the opening. In other words, you\u2019re a one-percenter. But most painters will never get a glimpse of that easily defended life. Most of us have to explain what we do to people who secretly look upon it as self-indulgent and basically a potentially enriching hobby, like collecting Depression glass. The world won\u2019t miss a new painting if it doesn\u2019t get painted. No focus group has been crying out for it. So why do it?\u00a0 If you can clearly explain why a Chardin still life matters, please speak up. It does. But all the reams of what\u2019s been written about art won\u2019t really explain exactly why. Some individuals whose opinion I value think a man my age should have a punishing job, like most people, who work long hours every day for an organization that will insure my teeth and enable me to be a productive member of the social order. They may be right, but I\u2019m more inclined to reread Walden<\/em> and study the stoic economics of Thoreau\u2019s retreat, and then head toward the nearest cottage by a pond (with a box of paints and brushes).<\/p>\n

My opinion of myself varies greatly, from one day to the next. On Thursday, I\u2019m thoroughly convinced that this odd pursuit of applying paint to one kind of surface or another matters more than anything else I could possibly do with my time. On Monday morning, I\u2019m utterly convinced that I\u2019ve wasted crucial years of my life. Then I crave recognition or just sales to restore my convictions about the importance of visual art. Even though the value of it resides in whatever mystery imparted itself to the silent gaze of the thousands around me at the Metropolitan Museum when I visited it this past week on a Tuesday.<\/p>\n

Actually, I\u2019ve had more than enough recognition to keep doing this. I\u2019ve won a few awards. I\u2019ve been accepted into prestigious shows. I\u2019ve had my work published in full-color catalogs. I\u2019ve had my writing about art published as well. Yet, none of this recognition and achievement registers within Average Joe\u2019s idea of hard-knock reality. I remain an obscure laborer in this field\u2014only one among the countless many. I continue to make most of my money as a writer and rely on my wife for her income as a teacher. Painters are seen as willful egotists, mavericks, visionaries, rebels, misfits\u2014in other words, talented, self-involved assholes. Yet, in reality, the pursuit of excellence in paint represents a long and difficult curriculum in humility, an ability to live with no illusions about one\u2019s importance in the world, an assurance that you are here to do something potentially wonderful that will go almost entirely unacknowledged, like the song of a wood thrush in an uninhabited region of Canada. The thing is, I\u2019m fine with that, at least for now. But of course I am. I\u2019m a painter, right?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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